Nothing is bright, nothing is shiny, nothing is yes at all. I am full of no and pain and sadness. I feel lost and alone and hopeless. I could not get out of bed today. I just lay there, in the dark, sad, hurting, scared. I just now got up. It’s after lunch. I’m so tired. Mentally, emotionally, physically. I am so tired. I am a fool. I am a fool and my soul is in tatters.


5 thoughts on “Depression

  1. Just remember. One Step, Two Step, breathe, repeat. It won’t always be like this. Tomorrow will be a little easier than today and then the next day the same thing.

  2. I don’t know. I can’t stop thinking, I want not to think. He’s not even worth crying over and yet I can’t stop. The last few days have been progressively worse, not better.

  3. You are a full human being with all the feelings that go with it, so of course you hurt. If you didn’t hurt after being betrayed or a loss, there would be something wrong with you. It’s like cleansing a wound, painful yes, but necessary to healing. If you don’t let yourself feel it and get it out, it will fester inside of you a lot longer. Mourn the loss, but don’t let it define you. You get strength by going on with your life in spite of the pain. You choose to get up, go to work, see friends. You choose happy and one day you will realize that while the memory is still painful, it no longer controls you. This has just been my experience and it’s different for everyone, but time does heal. Prayers for you.

    • I agree, the pain will get easier….I too have been a rough transition one that has set me in a much need path to finding true happiness within….You will make it through this. I know it’s tough, maybe go for a walk (a long walk), surround your self with friends, or just keep writting, that has helped me alot.

      Best of luck and happiness!

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